Friendship ? Friends ?

recently i feel left out .

Friendship ? actually, what is Friendship ?
Friendship is just word to me now. nothing special about it.
Friends ? when got problem only come find me. when having fun, do they come to me ?
is this the meaning of Friendship ?
i just don't understand.

i HATE you !

you both can just die and go to hell !!!! i really hate you guys !!!!
i really wish you guys aren't my parents !!!!
i rather go beg for food, i also won't ask from both of you !!!!
last time you guys keep saying love me love me, it was all just a fucking lie !!!!
LOVE ?! you guys want me to respect you guys ?! you guys tell me !
how you guys want me respect you guys ?! you guys don't even deserve it !
especially you ( dad ) i don't know why the hell you still got the face to ask me respect you ?!
you just yourself ! do you deserve it ?! i didn't ask for respect from you ! so... you can keep it !!!!
mom...i can understand you, but not this time. because you just do what he says, i ask you.
are you a DOG or my MOM ? this you think for yourself. i don't want to say anything already.

parents

i don't know what should i do. i'm so lost.
they keep asking me go back school, but... when i ask for money.
they wont even care or pick up my calls.
are they forcing me to get a job ?
this is how they talk when i want money from them.

' Brandon : mom can you give me some money to catch a movie ?
Mom : im LIM, your KHOO, go get money from your dad. '

' Brandon : hey dad, can you give me some money to genting ?
Dad : im meeting now, call you back later.

i waited for almost 3 hours. i was getting so un-patient, so...i called him back.

' Brandon : dad, you still in meeting ?
Dad : erm... i'll call you back later. '

at the end, he still did call back.
but...who can blame them ? their money, not mine.
they do this because they don't care ?
what should i do now ? just be on my own ?
can anybody help ?
='(

suemay's sweet 16

we were playing true of dare












suemay's cake












lighting up the candle's












LOL -.-'












finale =)





we left Pj around 7pm and ahead to suemay's party. but....we got lost. -.-'
we keep finding finding and finding, finally we found her house.
guess what time was it...' 9pm ' LOL ! ! !
when we reach there, saw all of them staying away from the pool. ' what the hell ? '
so...i got near the pool, and kena push down. -.-'
i was so damn pissed and all of them keep laughing there.
they even have water balloon, it was so freaking PAIN.
but...at the end i still had fun.
thanks suemay, for inviting me and HAPPY SWEET 16
=)

yesterday i came back aroun 3.30am. my mom was like very angry.
she keep scolding scolding and scolding. she did scold me something
that really hurt me. so...i was just crying, until i fall asleep.
actually, i know why she scolded me and i don't blame her.
what parents can accept a son like me ?
i'm just giving me mom trouble, what's the point of having me as a son ?
if i have a knife now. i would just stab myself.
then all my mom's problem will go away.

A day in Genting

what the hell loongs ?! ==''

















can spot me ? =)



















i love this pic the most xD


i woke up at 7.ooam and meet up with pured, we had breakfast.
then we rush to taman jaya to meet the others.
jos said 9.00am sharp, but foochok was late. 'As Usual'
we waited for jingyi for 1 hour. but in the end she said ' meet you guys up there. ==''
then we rush to genting, when we reach there, it was already 1.30pm. ==''''''
after everything, we meet up with wearniee and katherine.
i was so damn tired after the whole day. but... i still had FUN.
=)

a Fool

Baby, i know the story, i've seen the pictures, it's written all over your face.
tell me, what's the secret that you've been hidding, and who's gonna take my place.
Baby, you should've call me when you were lonely, when you needed me me to be there.
sadly, you never gave me too many chances, to show how much i care.
i should have seen it coming, i should have read the signs.
Anyway...i guess it's over.
Can't believe that i'm the fool again, i thought this love would never end.
how was i too know, you never told me about the pain and the tears.


if i could, i would...turn back the time. =')